hais

i think im going bersek at this rate

im really afraid of common test

its not like i never study la

but im really afraid of the outcome

what if i really fail ?

the whole world is really going to crash down

the pressure mostly come from my mother lor

she say if i fail

there goes my phone and ipod
and my computer too

the thing is
she cant compromise

which means that
even if a lot of people fail

its no use

unless everyone fail la
but highly unpossible

thats why im really afraid

although i already pushed myself

i started studying since monday

but it seems its not enough

everything is not enough

keep telling myself,
what i know is still not sufficient for me to do well

furthermore , my family will add fuel into the fire
because they seldom see me study

just know told my maid that im really afraid
then she just said 2 sentences that made me really demoralised
hit my morale to the rocks

what the hell
made me cry

i know im not the sort who sucuumb to this kind of dumb thing
but in the end
i did

i really cried

special thanks to genglin who consoled me
gave me tips for exams and stuff

although i still dont think i cant do it
but it managed to pacify me a little

i hope i really go crazy from studying man
so at least i wont have to worry anymore

hais
suddenly become all emotional and stuff

so disappointed in myself

i shall end all this man

lets talk about today

today supposed to have road run
but due to lightning risk
got no run !!!

how cool man

so slack all the way

then dismiss

waste my time
can actually use this time to study more

went to jurong point later
to study lor

i finished my A.Maths !
yeah

but , no confidence still


why is everyone so heated by one sentence that i mentioned
mr cheng is hot
lol

it was just a comment made my a fellow ncc cadet
so chill people

dont get so heated up
later blood pressure go up arh

lol !