went for ncc civil defence course today
haha
attend this can get special badge one .
and only some are selected to go
yeah man
they made us wake up super early lor
6.15 meet liao
haha
then meet that time that idiot ruiyang make so much noise
early morning so peaceful lor
then that idiot break the silence
ruiyang is my platoon sergeant la
still can say him until so lan
lol
ahahaha
took train to jurong first
then my idiot PS ask which side should we take
walau , that time got tell him le lor
haiyo , shibai
dont know why still can be PS
haha
then he go borrow my phone
i just lent him lor
dont know what he is up to ma
after fiddling it with a long while
he went to see my pictures !
walau
i got some bu ke gao ren de pictures inside
haha
then he go see reveal secrets
lol
took a long train ride to tampiness
then reach tampiness started to have a mini fight with ruiyang
lol
he dont want return me my phone ma
lol
then i try to snatch it back
of course he lose to me la
haha
took a bus down to the SCDF there
lol
also keep quarreling with ruiyang
play here and there also
haha
then that amalynna go tease
walau
haha
cos we keep talking to each other ma
fight here and there also
i like to talk back to him
dont know why
shuang gan
haha


we reach there super early la
the first school there
haha
then wait for super long for the other schools lor
i thought got a lot lor
in the end only got 2 other schools la
then they teach us stuff lor
forgot what leh
dont really care la
haha
its like super boring
and they have loads of break
the class go super slowly
and that wastes a lot of time lor !
walau
break time nothing to do de
then that idiot ruiyang sit behing ma
always kajiao me
want to play my handphone game
i was like , my games very nice meh
i think it sucks
but dont know why he is addicted to it
everytime got chance to play
he will ask me for my phone
waste my batt leh
then if i say no , he will make a lot of noise
say this and that
in the end lent him to make him keep quiet


then the whole course was basically talking cock with my dear PS
and listening to the SCDF people talk
boring
its like common sense for some of them la
haha
then got one practical
put out fire
thats so lame lor
it barely lasted for 1 min
later go back lecture room
hear more talking
and also do more crapping


finally comes the big thing
the test
everyone is like going through notes like crazy
and i was there sitting there doing nothing
felt so ready for the test la
but dont know why the rest still nervous
so i just flip through a bit to pretend lor
or else the sirs there will think i proud or something
then ruiyang was like so nervous and stressed up and i dont know why
i was like , relax la
i dont know what is wrong with them
its like ,
come on . its just 15 mcq questions
and all you need to do is to get 11 questions right and you get the badge
isnt it easy


did the test later
it was such a breeze
got stuck at a few questions
but just dont care
follow my feelings do
haha
later briefly check through then hand up le
i was one of the first few to hand up
haha
walau , that ruiyang damm loser
take so long la
and still can say question difficult
and that he cant do some of them
then he scared fail
so lousy can
haha
then while waiting for them to mark the scripts ,
my ears have to bear the whinings of my staff sergeant
done marking le
then they call people to stand up
its like 3/4 of them stand up la
but i wasnt one of them
then i was so scared la
i thought i fail
the 3/4 ones are passes lor
then later call me and another guy to stand up
also kranji de
then they say we got full marks
yeah man
haha
full marks !
hahaha
then there keep suanning ruiyang
older than me still can lousier than me
haha
got cert and badge later
then we go off le lor
haha

took bus to the interchange
that idiot ruiyang come kajiao me again la
play my games
bo bian
he make a lot of noise
the whole bus looking
play all the way lor
in train also play
until he reach a certain level is need to download from internet one
so he never play liao
haha
then he sian listen to mp3
lol
then we share lor
lol
hahaha
listen all the way
the boys all pigs sia
sleep
haiyo
the whole row all guys lor
only me girl
lol
then i was like the only one awake
hahaha
idiotic


another typical day at work ..
today supposed to get pay de
but in the end didnt
dont know why
she never mention
and i never asked
aiya , never mind lor
not as if they are going to run away
haha

that woman still seem to dislike me
today i took one class
p1 hands on science
and the thing is , p1 only got one girl
i completed the whole thing in 5 mins
and to think that one lesson is 1h30min
lol
after we finish brought her to the hall
where the p2s are
haha
they having games and movies
lol
but its basically slacking period
i dont see the tv on
then saw p4s there
a bit shocked ma
there are supposed to go outdoors
that woman suppose to bring them out de lor
then i asked one of the boys quietly
then all the boys crowd around and tell me the story why cant they go out
then the girls came
and all started begging me to bring them out
all kids want me to bring them out
cos , i let them go wherever they want
then i say cannot
cos must follow the schedule
later prinicipal will scold de
the principal is ms karen la
so i said , must ask ms karen first

then suddenly that woman came and said
no need to ask ms karen
just ask melissa
she's a nice teacher
she brings you to where you want to go
just ask her
then she told me
i'll help you take care of your class
then i stunned her by saying
oh , my class finish already . only p1 what
see the shock look on her face
ahahaha
never mind , i'll help you take care of her then
was her idiotic reply
for goodness sake , i rather bring her out with me la
can sense the hint of jealousy or not ? ahaha
turned her down a lot of times
the p4 kids are so insensible man
they know that woman doesnt like me
and they can still openly ask me to take her position to bring them out
haiyo , want to push me into the yellow river

lcuky got that p6 girl
good pals with her
lol
friend friend
not teacher-student
like that die liao
haha
know a lot of inside information from her
we also gossip about the students
lol
play with her also
five stones
lol
then that woman keep seeing me with that girl like not happy
but who cares

anyway , i already established good relation with the lower primary
now im on my way to the upper primary
actually already done le la
all the girls win over le
tell me inside info also
lol
they told me , that teacher said i was too young to teach them
but it is like whatever , i got this job from recommendation
so thats too bad
working on the boys now
lol
i will accomplish that !
make her die of jealousy
but its not that easy
guys are problamatic kids
walau
so far got some that listens to me
hahaha

anyway , had a horrible time playing with the girls
play five stones la
so many levels
kanina
play until my finger pain
but i not bad leh (:
the pro
lol . ahaha .
i pick up things fast ma
and i cant believe i can actually play five stones now
i was a noob last time la
practise how long also cannot
now quite relaxed lor
walau
haha

tmr got civil defence course
kanina la
wake up so early can
they want to meet at 6.15 !
walau
its earlier than school time la
screw them
so kia su for what la
im so hating this
but at least dont have to go teach

You're Confident...Sometimes

You can seem confident when the occasion calls for it But inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt A little more inner confidence could take you far... And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem

today actually dont want to work de
haha
sore throat ma
then want to no voice le
haha
then i called up the centre to tell them
then asked them if they are okay
then they say not very okay
after some consideration , i decided to go lor
haha
money slave
lol
haha

the in-charge was quite surprised to see me there
haha
anyway , today didnt really had that much trouble la
but was kind of hurt by that teacher's actions
the one who scolded me yesterday
today when got afternoon snack that time , i stayed in the classroom
played with the kids
then got one hankerchief on the floor
i didnt know ma
then that teacher came in and saw it
asked whose was it
then all dont know
then she suddenly saw me
then say ,
this is not my class , i take the p4
not you
go tell your teacher
walau , so sarcastic la
then later my students wanted snacks
so asked me to go take
bo bian go out lor
then give out lor
later p2s release
because i quite close to them ma
so i help to give out afternoon snacks to them
their teacher still in classroom ma
then when one of the p2s asked that teacher for snack
she say , ask your teacher
im not your teacher
walau
say so loud la
hurt
last time , when got snack that time
all the teachers just give out snack
dont care what level de
now seperate until so clear

i find her act childish la
but its kind of hurtful
she must still remember that im still a teen myself
almost cried la
but cant do that
i want to have a fun and memorable working experience
and im not going to let one childish adult ruin it

a p6 girl says she is just jealous la
all the levels very close to me ma
like to talk to me , interact and stuff
all dont like her

dont care that teacher . bleah
ahaha
now quite close to her
haha
talk about all the inside stuff in the centre
inside stuff , should get it hor ? haha
during nap time also
keep talking to her
haha
then play with my students

now i quite sportaneous leh
haha
played with them games
lol
five stones
lol
it is like so popular
they say i learn fast
lol
of course la
im pro
haha
but still need more practise
lol
haha
then also play PSP
student force me play one la
haha
its a dancing thing
like para ? lol
just that you press buttons
i like to play that
test how fast is my reaction
so so only la
haha

later met samantha
watch movie
ahaha
enchanted
i love it !
i want to watch it again
ahahaha
later chat with her about work
we have so many stuff to talk about lor
interesting and fun experience
hahaha
i getting my pay tmr !
yeah man !
haha
i hope they remember
ahaha
excited


i feel so hopeless today
today kana scolded by another teacher
because my class was super noisy
and she thinks that i didnt make effort to control them
i did lor
they just dont want to listen to me
i tried my best le lor
when she scolded me , i felt like and idiot
a student being scolded by a teacher
and that student who was scolded in front of her students
hell
feel so horrible
and shameful
lol
i just stayed in the classrooms all the while
didnt even go out
for snack also
i just hide in the classroom
pretend dont want eat , interact with the kids
fact is that i dont want to face that teacher liao
i feel so paiseh

suddenly realised that i did an awful job controlling the kids
they behave in all lessons other than mine
everyone goes wild in my class
and when i walk around and see the students behaving so well in that class ,
i cant help but feel envious
they might not like the teacher
but they listen
why is this so

because im new ?
got another teacher also came in same time as me
students dislike him
but behave
conclusion : not because im new

im young ?
possible . but students thought i was 21 ?
lol . so old ! no one thought i was in secondary school lor . haha

but i think its this two reasons combined
im too soft on them

walau
if this is going to carry on ,
i am so going to get sick of this job
thought of quitting crossed my mind
but i dont like to do stuff halfway
once start , must complete
cannot say die
if stop halfway very embarrassing one
haha
must jiayou
hope situations improve
haha

conducted my first science pratical today
which is like so cool
always im the students and i watch the teacher show
now its my turn to show them
so cool
i enjoyed doing it
haha
did it quite a few times
haha
on the pretext that im good and listen to their whinings
haha

but , I NEVER WANT TO BE A TEACHER IN THE FUTURE !
no way . haha

another boring day tmr ...


went to alexis blog and saw this quiz
felt like doing
so just do lor
haha


1. Real name
Melissa


2. Nickname
some call me mel , meli , issa , lili


3. Single or taken
ahahaha . erm , taken . lol


4. Zodiac sign
Rooster ! haha


5. Male or female
like duh . which guy go by the name of melissa


6. Elementary school
CHIJ bukit timah[refuse to use the new name]


7. Ipod
Nano ! haha . but im poor , its a 2GB one


8. How many buddies on your list
Erm , how does it go about ? haha


9. Friendster name
melissa . same . lol


10. Hair colour
Black ? with some strands of grey , golden brown . haha


11. Hair long or short
Shoulder length ? haha


12. Eye colour
black


13. Are you a health freak ?
hmm .. avearage la . haha


14. Height
not sure ? 157 ? haha


15. Do you have a crush on someone ?
when ? now ? haha . i dont crush people sadly


16. Do you like yourself ?
of course i do . i love myself


17. Braces ?
i dont need . but i want it . im very consious of my teeth . haha


18. Think you are awesome
as always . ahaha . but there are low moments . haha


19. Piercings
i got 2 earholes ? lol . haha .


20. Tattoo
no way !


21. First surgery
not yet ! haha . im still young . lol .


22. First piercing
in kindergarden ? about 5 years old


23. First best friend
primary 1 classmate , lee qing . haha


24. First award
i dont know ?
kindergarden . i received this award because i was 2nd in level .
counted ? haha


25. First sport i joined
cant remember . you mean officially ? haha
no impression though , p1 life suck . haha


26. First pet
a dog , who was here before i was borned .
sadly , it died when i was in p6


27. First vacation
australia ? haha


28. First concert
kindergarden . lol . i was performing . haha


29. First love
ahahaha . hmm ...

30. Favourite movies
erm ... cant recall

31. Favourite tv show
again , same reaction . cant recall . aha

32. Favourite colour
orange , red , yellow

33. Favourite music
all types , other than techno . haha . dont really like it

34. Favourite drink
green tea !

35. Favourite body part not on the face
what kind of question is this . i refuse to answer .

36. Favourite cartoon
oh , i shall just list the characters instead . aha
i used to love doraemon last time . spell correct ma ?
MICKEY MOUSE !

37. Favourite piece of clothing
haha , dont know how to answer .
just cant desrcibe it . aha

38. Favourite brand of clothes
im not a brand person . aha
just dont give me cheapskate stuff . aha

39. What do you sleep with
my adorable tigger , red mushroom and of course , my pillow and bolster (:

40. Favourite school
dont know

41. Favourite animals
just consider that as nothing

42. Favourite book
seldom read book now . aha

43. Favourite magazine
teenage , teens

What am i doing now
44. Eating
i dont eat supper

45. Drinking
nothing

46. Im about to
finish this lamo question

47. Listening to
Shut up and drive
-rihanna

48. Waiting for
my pay , shopping , going out , my overseas trip !

49. Watching
words appearing on my monitor

50. Wearing
shirt and shorts like duh

Your future
51. want kids
think so

52. Want to get married
aha , this is an idiotic question
i dont want to remain an old hag

53. Careers in mind
havent thought of it yet
but definitely not a teacher

Which is better in the Opposite Gender
54. Lips or eyes
i pay more attention to eyes

55. Hugs or kisses
i love hugs !
but i dont mind kisses though . aha

56. Shorter or taller
who wants to be called a shortie
not me

57. Romantic or sportaneous
Romantic ! aha

58. Nice stomach or arms
i dont really bother

59. Sensitive or loud
sensitive

60. Hook-up or relationship
relationship la . i dont go for one night stands . lol

61. Sweet or caring
a little of everything (:

62. Trouble maker or hesitant
erm ..
i think i would prefer trouble maker
being hesitant would piss me off

Have you ever
63. Kissed a stranger
no way , im not that open

64. Drank bubbles
im not an idiot

65. Ran away from home
i wouldnt dare , but it sounds cool . maybe i would try that next time

66. Broken a bone
factured my ankle before , it hurts .
my feet swelled . stayed in the hopsital for like 3 days because of that

67. Got an X-ray
yup . its cool

68. Broken someone's heart
i dont know , no one told me

69. Turn someone down
in what sense ? haha
everyone does that sometimes

70. Cried when someone died
yup , when my grandfather died , mum side
i wasnt that close to him
but somehow , i just found tears whelming

71. Cried at school
lets not talk about embarrassing moments .. next

Do you believe in
72. God
I do

73. Miracles
i hope for that (:

74. Magic
seldom impressed by magic tricks
but i want to see real magic ! aha

75. Love at first sight
I do ! ahaha

76. Aliens
no way

77. Heaven
yes ! (:

78. Santa Claus
no

79. Sex on the first date
no way

80. Kissing on the first date
i dont know
dont think so

81. Angels
yeah


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING SHAWN !
HOPE TO SHARE THIS SPECIAL MOMENT WITH YOU EVERY YEAR (:

hahaha
lol
its so cool
haha
BEHOLD !
haha

had work as usual today again
haha
brought out 2 levels outdoor
i was like sian sian liao
haha
dont really bother liao
ahah
then IQ maths later
p4
lol
i just anyhow lor
haha
but i didnt feed them with answers
i never like telling people answers directly
i will just hint
haha
today quite sian lor
haha
but never mind
sian also good
my students made me play PSP today
haha
the dance thing
like para para lor
just that its using buttons now
haha
i did okay la
lol
quite cool leh
haha
i dont mind getting that as a present
but im not a really gadget person
lol
other than having mp3 and phone la
the rest i dont care
i dont game actually
haha

met samantha later
haha
she came to my house
came to do her ipod thing lor
this woman bought a ipod nano
2nd generation de
the video one
haha
it looked super cool
haha
not cool la
cute
haha
also silver colour
same as mine
her house laptop spoil ma
so have to come over to charge her ipod and upload songs
haha
we crapped around
then later go lot one have dinner lor
had pasta mania
again
haha
but im not tired of it
haha
had a craving to drink soup
so just bought it lor
haha
the chicken one
lol
and of course , my favourite pasta
spicky chicken
lol
haha
with loads of cheese
haha
love it man
haha
that woman put too much pepper into her pasta
then i keep laughing
the pasta looked blackish
haha
i feel so happy for her
haha
in the end she had a hard time finishing her pasta
first time lor
haha
who ask her
haha
orbi
later go find her ipod cover
kanina la
told her not to get cheapskate one
it seriously suck
but she dont want to listen to me
walau
i find it horrible
the quality is super lousy can
cant stop criticsing it
haha
samantha got me to shut in the end
haha
went pasar malam
lol
i wasted 1 buck buying mickey mouse card holder
haha
i like it
but dont know buy for what
for fun lor
haha
im in a generous mood recently
lol
haha
then actually samantha wanted to play those pasar malam games one
but in the end never
haha
because i didnt want to waste my 2 bucks
haha
we became super childish
or rather , i became childish
samantha ng is always childish
haha
walk around then go home le lor

work tmr again
sian diao
conducting science pratical la
i find it sucky
hais


haha .
how true can that test results get
i did that quite some time ago
think i have to redo that
haha
i am not prejudiced ?
how true
haha

anyway , met my precious today
lol
samantha la !
haha
so long never meet her le lor
and today is the first time i am meeting her ever since we worked
thats like so long lor
miss her
haha
and this woman is like fucking late
make me wait for half an hour
fucker
haha
but on the account that she is my darling ,
forgive her
lol
yucks
this woman actually bought 115 bucks today
fuck her
wonder where she got all these money from
definitely not pay
she is getting it the same time as me
anyway , we went to zinc
that woman want to buy bag
jealous
i also want
but in the end she never
haha
went to see phones
this idiot
went to the sintel shop
asked how much does the phone cost if she upgrades
and the thing is ,
her whole family uses starhub line !
idiotic !
haha
maybe she is getting the same phone as me !
thats so cool !
ahah
then it will be the second time we got same phone liao
lol
and also , the same colour
how cool is that
ahaha
later walked around
go minitoons
i wanted to buy keychain
those couple one
so cute la !
share with samantha ma
but i want the girl
and she wants it too !
so in the end we never buy
confirm quarrel
and then i will lose
haha
i wanted to buy so many things
but no money
then we go more than words
kanina
nothing there satisfies me
i like this design , dont have the colour i want
and blah blah
fuck la
but in the end ,
bought 2 tiny cute lollipop keychain
ahaha
we went crazy together
lol
haha
then we go macs
talk cock
haha
talk about work also
all the stupid experience with the kids la
hahaha
then later we left
she got her stuff to do , i got mine
haha
thats all ba
haha

You Are Not Prejudiced

Not only are you color blind, but you're also ethnicity blind, gender blind, and sexual orientation blind. You don't judge someone until you truly know them. And even then, you're probably reluctant to judge. You try to treat everyone equally. Everyone has a fair chance with you. Good job - there's not a prejudiced bone in your body.

fantastic day today
ahaha

today got retest
ncc de
haha
the CLTs from other school came to test us
it was like , wow
so grand ah
haha
anyway , it was quite scary la
lol
first was grooming check
lol
lucky i cut my nails
last week totally forgot
then nails super long
lucky this time i got cut
or else i would be a roasted chicken now
haha
next up , amrsdrill
lol
kanina
i become timer
although i like to time ,
but i havent did that for ages
like that i cant concentrate lor
walau
in the end i really did wrong thing
but dont care la
haha
pass can liao
next , IFC theory
its verbal
gosh
hate verbal
write better
haha
bullshit my way through
which was exactly what i did
i bullshitted
although there wasnt really much chance for me
but i scored bonus point
for me only
so pro right
because of my bullshit again
im the pro
yeah man
haha
then it was practical
kanina la
i hate it
we do all those crawling and stuff ,
in the canteen
not field
walau
pain la
got those run
must run then faster prone down
kanina
suddenly falling down onto the floor is totally painful
haha
but dont care
i passed !
ahaha
last week we did a test
i thought i could get 50
or at least , around there
today they announce the results
and they mentioned that the first four got prize
then i was like , have meh ?
i ask others then talk too loud la
haha

when they wanted to announce the top ,
i was like
aiya , confirm is the guys de lor
all mug like crazy
haha
but ,
it was me !
yeah man
im the pro
haha
i got 44/60
okay la
not up to expectations
but nevertheless ,
i topped
haha
see all the looks on the guys faces
woa
shuang gan man
own them
haha
all stun tio
haha
and the thing is ,
i didnt really study for it
just read through
and i still can own all those that studied like crazy
and my reward was ,
one whole twisties jumbo pack
got 12 small packets inside
ahaha
how good is that man
haha
last training today !
ahaha

later went out
haha
go queensway
then later go RSYC
finally remembered that
repucblic of singapore yatch club
lol
haha
go that stupid KTV lounge la
burned my 3 hours there
about 3h i think
haha
hear horrible noises
ear so pain
ahaha
then later went to have prata for dinner
lol
ahaha
then got home lor
i lost my key !
the thing for my necklace de lor !
got lock and key ma
then my key lost !
walau
then not as nice as before liao
walau
cant stand it
must go buy again
but heartpain leh
sad la
hais
haha


aha .
what else can i blog about work now
haha
its the same old stuff
teaching wild and crazy kids
and going crazy with them too
and next , coming across cases of kids who cry
kanina

anyway , its a new experience today
haha
went on a excersion with the kids today
went to the singapore national museum and the DHL balloon ride
haha
i was quite excietd about those trips leh
i love going to the history museum
its just so cool
looking at those artefacts and stuff
but i like the people's lifestyle best
the clothes they wear , the kampung they live in ,
the roadside hawkers , the different cermonies ,
the shophouses , blah blah
its just so cool !
haha
anyway ,
i was quite happy to get the chance to visit the museum again
im never tired of going there !
haha
anyway , explored the place
but all see before liao
and the excitment wasnt there
partly because i cant explore it out on my own
have to constantly look out for the kids
make sure they dont wander off too far ,
dont make too much noise ,
blah blah
haha
i still had fun though
hahaha

later was the DHL balloon ride
lol
i was actually quite excited about it
always wanted to take that ride
but didnt have the chance
but again ,
the excitement wasnt there when we went up
had to care for their welfare
and i cant get high
no other friends there with me
i was like , quite lonely there
no one to share my excitment and mood to
so naturally , my mood went totally down
it was supposed to be fun !
but it became quite a common thing for me
cos the primary reason i am there is to look after kids
and not be a kid myself
how saddening
but i want to take that ride again !
this time , with others
haha

then came the slacking time
the bus is sceduled to come half an hour after we had our ride
lol
so everyone was just there sitting around
and then , surprisingly ,
the p6 boys came over to my area there
when i was talking to another girl
they pretend to be there la
talking among themselves
haha
then later ask me if im in sec school
haha
then ask what level , what school
lol
then they ask me what secondary school good
haha
then i know they want to ask for opinion
purposely make them tell me their score
haha
shall not elaborate much
just told them of the different choices
haha
see which one they want

it was like so fake ,
when they neared me , i knew they wanted to ask me stuff liao
but it was nicely made up though
too bad im too smart for that
haha
cant fall into their trap
but , i like that !
haha
i like people like that
haha
they just need a few more practices and people cant see through it already
i am also like that de
so i like them !
ahaha
keep up with the good work
lol
ahaha

then got one girl told me about her crush
lol
i made her say out
again , because i am smart
can sense
haha
and i never rule out any possibility
p4 can always get into relationships
haha
i wont be surprised
lol
i told her that , and after some hoaxing
she told me
ahahaha
and hell , im teaching her how to get into relationships
kanina
am i teaching the right stuff ?
is it in the syllabus ?
haha
lol
i think not
but i dont care
haha
i dont discourage that
but at the same time , dont encourage that
so im neutral
lol
then in the bus ,
all the girls keep bugging me
ask me if i got boyfriend
kanina
teacher must have meh
hahaha
walau
then they keep saying
i dont believe you dont have
i dont believe you never get wooed before
you confirm have one lor
haha
all these crap
but of course i denied
i entertained this question of theirs for like 1 hour ?!
1 full hour la
kanina
completely drained my energy
not tired become super tired le la
and thats not the end
the other part of the journey
i was bugged for my chinese name
kanina
then i purposely dont want tell them
dont know why
i got this feeling that i shouldnt tell them
so kept to it all along
keep saying no to all their guesses
hahaha
this one also waste a lot of my energy
and now ,
everyday im going to get bugged by kids from all level
teacher , you got boyfriend ?
teacher , whats your chinese name ?
teacher , how old are you
kanina
die la
haha
but dont care

ncc tmr !
haha
stupid retest
hope i pass
lol
haha

You Are 4% Emo

You're the furthest thing from emo. Sensitivity is not something you exactly cultivate... and you can't imagine weeping over song lyrics.

my day was so much better today
hahahaha
i learnt how to use the photocopying machine !
lol
ahahaha
i think i learn fast
they do one time i know liao
haha
then i was there just happily zapping papers
haha
cool
i like it !
so fun
lol
haha
then i think the other teachers quite shock that i know how to use it
haha
then can go find assesment practises for those people to do
walau
haha
fun
i can either kill them , or spare them
hahahaha
i tell you something !
i encountered loads of crying incidents today
hahaha
a guy actually cried !!!!
i want to laugh can
haha
p3 i think
hahahaha
so big liao still cry
lol
but i never encountered guys crying before
haha
and you know why he cried ?
because another guy accidently hit his head with his teeth
thats the most ridiculous thing ever man
then the other guy should cry
teeth more pain la
head just hit by teeth only ma
haha
but i cant sit there and do nothing ma
haha
heartsoft
lol
i wanted to leave him alone de lor
but i just couldnt
lol
in the end pretend to message his head or something
then he stop crying
-.-
laugh all you want
hahahaha
but when a guy cry , my heart actually soften
lol
hahaha
walau
anyway , another p2 cried again
girl
walau
she cry for super long la
kanina
lucky i still can pacify her
lol
with all those stupid lies
idiotic they are
but they work
haha
i find myself being more childish now
haha
i play with the kids on my own accord lor
haha
play like crazy
haha

went out to causeway with my aunty today
watch bee movie
it was quite okay la
hahaha
later go walk for a while then go home le lor
haha


oh man
this day just totally suck
today had shooting ma
i wanted to get marksman
thats what i hoped for since last year
during trainings , i did well
quite well in fact
and when i wanted to do better during the actual stuff ,
i actually did worse
its always like that
raised my hopes , then dash it
its the same this year again
i didnt do well
i dont even think i passed
which is so disappointing
i guessed i was really affected by it
didnt even bother to talk to anyone else after that
i just kept quiet throughout the whole journey
there are points where i can actually talk to the girls
but i didnt even bother to
didnt even want to sms
just stand in the train look around
like a complete idiot
and , im not even bothered
which is something unsual
cos i never like people looking at me like im some idiot

been thinking what caused me to not do well
as usual , blaming stuff on others
the girls that went were not close to me ,
so never talk to them
as a result , no motivation , because normally i talk to the guys
talk to them then go mood ma
cos it lifts my spirts
without them , im lifeless
cos i dont talk
and , we were the last batch there
then everything was done quickly
even the lights were on
and , my position all wrong
everything seems wrong today

and best of all ,
i've got work tmr
yay , how nice
face all those kids again
but i dont care anymore
im just going to be like a walking robot
taking instructions and doing what im supposed to do
without life
im not going to work so hard anymore
its just hard to interact with kids !
i just cant do it
i thought i managed to
but , i still couldnt
its a fact that i cant work with kids
let alone have fun with them
tried lying to myself that i can do it
but i just cant

im tired
both mentally and physically
its just exhausting
im going to get sick soon
so happy
it means getting a trip to the doctors
ooh , love it
i want to relax
but the problem is , there is no free time
when i want to spent weekdays at home ,
my dad will say , go for archery
or else , my mum will say , stay at home do homework
like that im going to die of exhaustion
working throughout holidays
much worse than going to school

HELP

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize. Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do. If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does. Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image. Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener. The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

haha .
today quite tired lor
then went to the centre like sian sian one
haha
first thing i did
bring the p4 and 5s out
the next year one
which means present p3 and 4
lol
in the end never bring the guys out
muhahaha
too bad for them
actually the girls are instructed to go to the playground just outside the centre
but i let them go play at the nearby one
ahaha
then they say im kind
(: grins
haha
of course la
i so good
lol
actually because i dont want to reject them
i feel bad
lol
cos im young once
so i know the feeling ma
lol
so the kids like me to bring them out
p1-p5
lol
haha
but if i were to bring all levels out for every slot
im going to die of exhaustion
and also be sick of going out
haha
anyway , played hide and seek with them
lol
haha
very long never play liao
haha
childish la
haha
but i dont care
im a brilliant hider
lol
they cant find me
then later bring them go two minimarts
my name spread throughout the centre very fast
cos i always let them go a lot of places
lol
not allowed to actually
only one
but i can let them got like 3 or 4 places
lol
then always late go back
today also ma
the girls dont want go back
give me crap reasons
walau
been there done that la
they cant fool me
haha
ate kids portion for lunch again later
i paiseh to take too big de serving ma
haha
make me hungry lor
i didnt have afternoon snack unlike them
cos i dont want
haha
jian fei
lol
later took p1 and 2s for nap
lol
i want to sleep de lor !
thats why specially go ask in charge to let me take them instead of p4s
lol
haha
bluff her
say the kids want me
dont want other teacher
lol
so let me change
haha
i thought it would be easier to control them and let them go sleep
in the end i cannot sleep !
cos some complain this
then all wake up
then later another thing
then in the end they didnt get their peaceful sleep
kanina
i didnt sleep !
hell
so tired lor
later p4 IQ maths
haha
i had a fun time !
torture them !
haha
i got answer sheet ma
so dont need work out myself
so just say , all wrong
haha
then see their that ,
huh , still wrong
that kind of look
wa
shuang gan
the joy of being a teacher
haha
all i need to do is , walk around and see them rack brain
i so happy la
haha
i had fun for that
cos everyone listen to me
including boys
haha
cos they want hints
haha
later took p2s and 4s
lol
free period
i play hangman with them
lol
at first i dont know what to give lor
in the end i gave two topics
sports and country
lol
killer
hahaha
after a while tired liao
so let them play on their own
i sit one corner
lol
keep yawning
then sit there stone
haha

tmr got no work !
so happy
cos got shooting competition
ahaha
my first break !
haha
lol
actually can go halfday tmr de
3.30 meet ma
but i dont want
haha
must sleep !
replenish energy
haha