haha
so long never blog liao
sorry people

last day of work today
stayed till about 2 lor
lol
play with the kids five stones
haha
then get promoted to a higher level
lol
just nice
a bit childish right
but i dont care la
bought some snacks for them
didnt get to distribute them
haha
lucky ah
if i give hor , sure not enough one
because all will ask for more
lol
so before i left , told the principal to help me distribute to them
haha
so smart
this month i think they gave me extra pay
good ma
yeah man
work so hard
of course should get extra
haha

sunday
went to church alone in the morning
damm sian one lor
i hate to go alone la
fucking
after that ate lunch with shawn tay and uncle jerremy
lol
their house near to my church ma
haha
later went to shop with them also lor
at causeway point
with samantha
shop for that idiot shawn clothes
he wanted to get jeans and shirt
haha
so me and samantha tag along to give suggestions lor
went to this shop to get jeans for that guy
walau
then the salesgirl thought i was that guy's girlfriend
what the heck
pui
my taste not so lan
haha
after that go john little get his shirt lor
uncle jerremy taste so horrible
haha
choose one shirt de design like indian like that
haha
he should get it lor
haha
attract indian girls
so next time can have life time curry to eat
ahahaha
anyway , after walking here and there
got him a black and pink shirt in the end
hahaha
pink damm cool la
but the queue bloody hell long
so while waiting for that idiot to pay for his shirt ,
samantha and i went to gelare to buy ice cream
haha
i love ice cream !
we both bought double scoop
haha
our taste in ice cream different de
the one she likes , i dont like
the one i like , she dont like
haha
but , its okay
after that go back liao lor
shawn went for his class bbq
samantha went to relative house
me and uncle jerremy went to the range
haha
collect back my equipment ma
i am no longer in the national youth team liao
lol
dont want la
so many commitments
siao ah
went there , saw the np archers
rasmi , silie , shawn chua , jia lin , derrick , yan zhi , edi
got some others
but dont really know them
haha
the jaffar family was also there
along with nessa and coach
plus some others whom i dont know
the moment i step into the range
that idiot range warden come to us liao
on pretext on talking to jerremy la
i just walk away
haha
damm smart right
hate that warden la
heard about the recent theft accident at the range
what the hell
screw that idiot person la
that bastard
mother fucker
kaninabu
nabeh
go and steal people's thing for what
fucker
fuck off la
lucky never steal my things
or else i'll curse and swear
so faster go get shawn tay and samantha stuff also
haha
shawn tay is one damm disgusting guy la
so dirty
what the hell
anyway , went there
chit chat with the rest lor
then when i go off
ask silie if he wants the new urban male voucher
ronald gave it to me ma
but i never use
so ask him lor
in the end shawn chua and silie fight for it
lol
the moment i ask
both of their eyes lit up
haha
but shawn faster take action
took it away before silie that lao ah peck does
but in the end the both of them share lor
they are after the slippers
which was what i wanted also
but like very ex
so i just give them lor
after that george sent me and jerremy back
because carry so many stuff ma
haha
after reaching home go out again
go sakae
damm sian lor
lol
haha
my brother go there like country pumpkin la
walau
sia suay also
haiyo

saturday
went out shopping with samantha
met at 9.30
we go far east
lol
reach there
no shops open
sian diao
so sit down chit chat lor
haha
then i keep sending songs
lol
at about 11 plus
samantha's uncle came to give her her earpiece
that idiot woman left it in the car
haha
after that the shops start opening le ma
then we go walk around lor
my dad gave me 100 to shop ma
haha
yeah man
cool
walk around for dont know how many hours
haha
then both of us got 5 tops
we got about 3 of the same design
but different colour
ahaha
like that almost finish spending my 100 bucks liao
haha
after that go wheelock place
haha
never go there before lor
lol
go the borders
samantha want to buy books
haha
then shun bian also walk around lor
first 2 levels only la
later have to go back liao
i wanted to go to church
then at the bus stop , received a call from rasmi
ask me if i am going for the AAS meeting or not
haha
then i feel like going
but still cant decide
so said no first lor
that samantha ng la
wear skirt then dont want to go there wearing that
so after a long while
we decided to go
but have to go her house to change first
take damm long la
in the end go there late
damm paiseh lor
haha
go there hear dr wong talk crap
haha
decided not to go for training liao
hahaha

after that go bpp for dinner lor
with shawn tay , uncle jerremy and samantha
haha
went to kfc
then chat lor
walau eh
that joker make me and samantha laugh like siao la
hahaha
like father like son
lol
same kind one
haha
i think we make super a lot of noise la
ahaha
after that the idiot want to buy clothes
go look around lor
in the end bought one from hang ten
so ex lor
shouldnt buy from there
haha
but also not my money
lol
went to find jeans later
go IP zone lor
actually got some quite nice one
but hor
its either
no size or cutting dont fit
he damm poor thing la
haha
then spent a lot of time there just to find him one pair
lol
in the end
nothing at all
thats why sunday decide to go and shop with him
haha


hahaha
second last day at work liao
hahaha
told my students that i dont want to come back next year
then they were making hell a lot of noise
say i must come back
haha
ask me why i dont want
then i say because they very naughty
haha
then they all so sad
haha
anyway , today got one new p2 boy
haha
bryan
super smart
maths 96
english 99
walau
haha
intelligent , a bit shy , but also a bit crazy
he sometimes very outspoken ma
reminds me of someone
haha
today kind of peaceful
some students went for an excursion to the bird park
lucky never ask me go lor
haha


today brother's birthday
haha
after work go buy present for him
he got buy me birthday present ma
haha
ear studs
walk around then decided to go more than words
i got $5 off ma
haha
got him this eeyore
damm cute la
wanted for myself de
but never mind lor
haha

just found out something after 14 years
haha
my grandmother is a malaysian
so cool
haha
my mum side de la
if i didnt mention that my student told me i look like a malaysian
i wouldnt have known that i got a malaysian grandmother
lol
hahaha


didnt blog again yesterday
haha
after work rushed to cathay
kanina
to watch national treasure la
start at 7 ma
i left the centre at 6.10
wanted to leave early
but played with the kids until forget the time
walau
in the end have to cab there la
fucking la
stupid cab fare
$20.45 leh !
so ex !
heartache la
kanina
i paid $6.05 worth of extra charges
not cheap la
i never want to cab again unless necessary
raise until so much leh
this tells us something
we should get a car
haha
lol

anyway , go there then chiong to the 5th level
go buy my dinner , then go inside le lor
i love the grand cathay la
haha
seat quite wide
damm comfy
i like
haha
dont know why
normally i see movie trailers
feel like watching that movie because it looks interesting
then when really watch liao
i would be really disappointed
it happened again when i watched national treasure yesterday
i wanted to watch it so much
but after watching
i am so disappointed
to whole thing like tv drama only
quite boring sadly
only the history part interest me
all the facts and relics
esp the codes and stuff
other than that
no interest

at night even worse
because whole day at childcare
headache
stupid kids
go home after bathing feel like sleeping liao
then suddenly my mum come in to my room and ask me to put my phone outside in the living room
of course i dont want la
having my phone by my side at night means the world to me
taking it away means cutting my contact off from people
so quarel with my mother la
then she threaten to confiscate my phone and give it to my damm sister
im sick of being the guai kia who listens to her mother
fucking la
i dont rebel de
so i wonder what happens if i rebel one day
i really need loads of guts
so put my phone outside lor
then later still have to hear naggins
at that time , my head hurt like crazy liao
so just close the door
want to go sleep
then accidently slam the door
then fucking mother took it as a sign of showing my unhappiness
the next moment , i was beaten lor
until my whole arm turned red
bloody hell
kaninabu


anyway , today taught p4 first
writing class
compo all these lor
i love to mark and read compo
haha
but i think its their first time doing compo without pictures
so all dont know lor
so just summarise for them
even draw picture for them la
walau
anyway
i hate to badmouth and complain about them la
but hor
i am a bit shocked that some of their english standard is equal to that of a p1
maybe a little better
incomplete sentence , broken english
and stuff
shall not comment much la
recently wondered if i lost my authority liao
everybody step over my head leh
tell them keep quiet dont listen
shout also no use
always headache
noisy class
today my students made me some necklace
lol
necklace
but it cant serve its purpose
they used those beads and stuff la
the string very thin
break easily
haha
but gan dong leh
haha
i received a bracelet from a p3 girl
a necklace from another p3
and 3 necklaces from 3 p2s
one of them broke liao
saddening man
i must put it back together
haha
let me find the time to do it first lor
haha
but i will
the problem is
dont know what will i use it for
haha

after work forget to bring my house keys
i thought my dad would be at home ma
in the end go my grandma house
so fucked up la
dread going to my grandma place
tmr brother birthday
celebrate at grandma house
i dont want to go
just tell them to bring the cake back for me
and also my dinner
have to go buy birthday present for him leh
dont know what to buy
haha
he hinted that he wants a soft toy
lol
but what soft toy to buy ?!
haha

second last day at the centre tmr


MERRY CHRISTMAS
hahaha
its time to celebrate
haha
the best part about christmas is receiving presents !
haha
lets see what i got la

❤ mickey mouse from shifu
❤ mickey mug from ronald
❤ tigger and eeyore handphone holders from mum
❤ paper weight and passport cover from godparents
❤ tigger cushion from gift exchange
❤ chocolates from the centre's principal
❤ shower gel from my student



i feel like a pig now leh
haha
woke up at 12 today
officially la
haha
actually 10 plus wake up liao
but nobody woke me up
so just slack around lor
haha

wake up at 12 plus then still can eat breakfast
haha
no choice ma
dad bought breakfast for me
then sit in the living room read newspaper , eat cake , watch tv
haha
da chang jin lor
we got nothing to do in the holidays ma
so watch da chang jin over again lor
haha
i must admit watching korean dramas is a bit addictive
haha
A BIT

now i can control le ma
ever since i joined the national youth team
time is important factor ma
normal training end at 6 usually
then rush home have to do homework le
cannot afford to waste time watching tv
only when eat dinner
while eating then watch
finish le faster pack up go back room do work
haha
this is one benefit i got from joining the team
haha
i dont get addicted to dramas anymore
hahaha

anyway , back to my slacking routine
aha
an hour later , family want to eat lunch liao
no choice have to eat also
actually dont want de lor
but my mum keep saying later i get gastrics
walau
so no choice lor
always eat , watch tv , sleep
eeee
like pig leh
although pigs are intelligent animals
like me
haha
but not really used to slacking life lei
feel uneasy

didnt go out with samantha today
last minute this woman tell me her mum dont allow her la
from midnight cannot contact her liao
sms her never reply
call her never answer
make me think that she got kidnapped
ahahha
what a wild imagination i have
haha
so just stay at home whole day to watch tv lor
help to wrap gifts also
forget how to do le
then the first one so horrible
the second one nice
but looks can be deceiving
haha
the first one hor , gift nicer
haha
packed my archery stuff also
i still got a pair of inno limbs
unused
wasted lor
doubt i would have the chance to use it
haiyo
saddening
hahaha
but dont care la

a bit disappointed that today never go out lor
because i wanted to buy clothes
i run out of shorts le
although now frequently wear jeans
ahaha
but i still like shorts
so even if i dont really wear them ,
i will still buy
haha
waste money hor
i dont care
aha
i also run out of clothes le
everytime also wear the same clothes one
sian lor
even if i wear not sian
the people who see me wear also sian
haha
but i dont have a lot of clothes to start with ma
haha
from young like that le ma
but dont feel like talking about my miserable life
haha

now very happy ma
shifu told me he got me a rat with yellow boots
ahahaha
but , it is not idiotic !
haha
i love it !
yeah man
just love this mouse
mickey mouse !


suddenly feel so anti social recently
cant find out the reason why also
just dont like talking now
on msn practically dont bother talking to anyone lor
what is happening to me man
dont feel like blogging , dont feel like talking people
dont even feel like going out

like bottling up all my feelings liao
and i dont know how to express it now
im trying hard to find out the reason why too
i want to find back myself

maybe its because of work lor
everyday stuck in the bomb shelter
totally cut off from the outside world
just stuck with kids
even im with them , im also slacking
dont even feel like talking or playing with them at times
just leave me alone
but i practically cant
they just stick to me
and its hard to shake them off
but being alone is also wierd
argh , what the hell am i talking man
haha
split personality
lol

almost forgot that i myself is a student
and also a big kid
just realised that yesterday
went out to the homework ma
then like got a lot of things forget how to do liao
lucky got help
haha
now left chinese
hate it la
damm irritating de lor
that idiot chinese department
every year nothing better to do
always give us assignments de
screw them

christmas is round the corner
but i dont have the christmas spirit in me
haha
the joy of giving
just realised that i didnt get any christmas presents for anyone
other than samantha ng
maybe its derived from my family lor
we dont exchange gifts what so ever
there used to be when i was young
my anuties got give me christmas present
but that was only when i was 5
my mum told them not to get me any presents
because she doesnt like to give people presents
so ask people not to give her presents
also dont like to share stuff
thats why i got this bad habit
selfishness
still trying hard to shake off this bad habit la
but its hard
got a feeling that this year's christmas is not going to be a good one
wait , since when was it good
always same de lor
every year go attend christmas eve mass ,
exchange gifts with godparents
christmas day go grandparents house
relatives all come
but not once did we exchange presents
just go there eat and talk
how boring
i dont even talk to them
haha
every year just go to the room stay there
as told by my parents ?
thats why become anti social le
but i dont even think i got topic to talk about la
haha

tmr maybe going out with samantha
she still havent confirm
haiyo
normally i will be scolding her and all these
ask her to confirm everything
then come up with places to go and stuff to do
now totally bo chap
she say not confirm then i just anything
go then just go , never go never mind
just slack at home

very long never slack at home le
evyerday wake up at usual time
do usual thing
today just wake up late
slack throughout
watch tv , use com
now all these seem boring to me to
nothing interest me liao
nothing


hi people
haha
super lazy to blog about my hongkong trip
lol
just cut it short
fill in the details next time

hongkong was kind of boring lor
other than the shopping
the tourguide was super lousy la
speak chinese can talk until make me dont understand and got me a headache
kanina
full of bullshit also
cant tahan him la
haiyo
he spoiled my whole trip
lol
in the bus cannot stop talking one leh
there is not once that he sit down and keep quiet
keep yaking and yaking away only
cant have my peace
in the morning want to catch some sleep also cannot la

another reason that contributed for my lack of sleep was my grandmother
that one is really hell
i stay in the same room as her
and you know old people ,
nag and nag , so kancheong also
walau
everynight cant turn off the lights
because she needs to go to the toilet
and she scared she fall
so must turn on the lights
damm bright la
kanina
i am used to sleeping in the dark de ma
also , the snorings very loud
thats not all lor
in the morning even worse
1 hour before the wake up call ,
already woken up by the nagging of my grandma
walau
scared i cant wake up
so an hour before start waking me up liao
fuck la
everyday also same thing la
cant get my sleep
haiyo

first 2 days super boring
just go eat and sightseeing
lol
boring
people say hongkong de wanton mee nice
but i beg to differ
ahaha
i like the wanton there
lol
but only there
singapore de i dont like
then my grandparents keep complaining that the wanton mee sucks
because dont have charsiew
walau
diff style ma
cant tahan them
aha

next time then talk more about it
anyway, i learnt how to play mahjong !
so cool
ahaha
shawn tay is an idiot
ahaha


ahahahaha
had a fun day today !
also dont know why fun
i just enjoyed myself today
haha

morning a bit boring
bring p1 outdoors ma
only got 2 p1 boys
and they are new to the centre
so not very close to each other , not familiar to the place
hence , they dont know where to go
haha
that area got loads of playground and provision shops
haha
bring other levels out
they got one whole list of what to do , where to go
but the p1s , they got totally no clue of where to go
haha
and they always makes me super pissed off
kanina lor
fuck
haha
anyway , i brought them to the playground just outside the centre
shiok
haha
but i was on the verge of sleeping
so boring la
they dont know what to do
i dont know what to suggest
haha
tried to find for people to entertain me
but got nobody
totally sian diao lor
20 mins passed and i felt like bringing them back
but i want to slack ma
so told them to stay there
haha
hour plus later then brought them back
cos i tired liao
haha
go back centre
also nothing to do
all levels having lessons still
so just slacked at the hall
wanted to watch tv
but i scared to turn it one
not sure if its allowed
haha

lunch later
was actually quite hungry de
wanted to eat
but look at the food , dont feel like eating liao
haha
doesnt look appetizing
after a long consideration then go take a small portion
haha
still didnt finish the food
first time after being in the centre
walau
haha

nap time later
my student brought psp !
ahaha
then i play lor
so childish
but dont care
fun ma
haha
but hell , they are better than me la
so sia suay
haha
but im new to it ma
lol
play five stones with them also
so fun la !
i improved
keep playing and playing
until hand tired
hahah

taught p3 IQ maths
haha
so easy lor
dont need look at answer also know the answer
hahaha
lol
if i dont know then die liao la
haha
got one boy super smart
i never give hints for those difficult questions he also can solve
walau
haha
but he is so not a model student
damm perverted one la he
haha
quite violent also
lol
not the pure and innocent type
in class keep pulling another boy's shirt la
then expose this and that
walau
i see until feel disgusted lor
hahaha
also super noisy la
haiyo
the girls also
got to side
angel and devil
but i know how to cope with them
ahahaha
played with the girls five stones after i mark finish all the papers
haha
yeah man

later got p2 IQ maths also
haha
i am the most comfortable with p2s
haha
can con them , bribe them , threaten them
or whatever to make them listen to you
haha
i established this point system with them
they quiet i add points
noisy remove points
by the end of the class , if the points hit a certain number
i will buy sweets for them
haha
or something from hongkong
lol
it worked
ahaha
so cool
kids really are gullible
but already intended to buy stuff for them la
haha
just wanted them to be quiet
so con them
hahaha

but hor
if want to buy for them
other levels also must buy la
walau
then i pok liao
no money
6 levels la
1 level at least 8 students
excluding p1s
some students i dont like
but still have to be fair
haha
i'll settle for sweets
the cheap cheap type
ahaha
dont care them
think i so rich ah
i got better things to do
haha
like shopping for myself !
yeah man
haha
mum changed money for me le
lol
looking forward to my trip !
and im allowed to bring my phone !
hahaha

this is probably gonna be the last post for this week
haha
i will enjoy myself !
haha


haha
now very lazy to blog
no mood actually
but blog for the sake of it

just now pack my luggage
going to hongkong on sunday le
haha
so excited
prepared money liao !
haha
total HK1040
so cool la
im a rich woman
lol
looking forward


haha
changed my blogskin
actually im okay with my previous blogskin
but because nothing to do this morning
and i realised that i didnt change my blogskin for a long time
so just change lor
this skin quite sweet and simple ma

like today's outing
sweet and simple
went out only in the afternoon
but it was raining quite heavily
so cabbed down
to far east
want to get my necklace ma
but after walking a few rounds
couldnt find the shop
so sad lor
but never mind la
haha
another day lor
its not like not having a neckalace would kill me
haha
didnt buy anything today
haha
so li hai lor
dont know why dont feel like spending money
very xin tong
cannot anyhow waste money
i worked so hard for it lor
so must be extra careful with what i spend
haha
walk there for a while then go back le
haha

quite an enjoyable day today la
haha
love it

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

work today
lol
the whole centre got alerted when i stepped inside la
haha
because i cut my hair
and all my students got a shock
and they shout
teacher cut hair !
whats the big fuss
haha
then all the other students flocked to see me upon hearing that
walau
haha
they all say i look nicer last time
all ask me why i cut my hair la
walau
so malu

anyway , first period go outdoors
haha
bring p4s
lol
and the thing is ,
only got 2 girls
and fuck those 2
they almost got me done for
they told me to bring them to sunshine place
they say its allowed
im not sure ma
so just let them go lor
haha
later go walk around to slack
i cant understand why those 2 cant shut their trap when they go back
they told the p5 girls that i brought them to sunshine place
kanina
then they all not happy
complain here and there
fuck man
mouth so big la
cant they put it to proper use
haiyo
im not gonna acceed to their requests in the future liao
came back then dont feel like eating lunch
totally skipped it
haha
had IQ maths later
then quite difficult
then got one boy say he want to go tiao lou ji sha
so i wrote these 2 words ,
tiao lou
ji sha
on the white board
then wrote his name on top
then i said ,
okay this is your checklist
once you done it , i will tick it
so go tiaolou jisha now
haha
i find it idiotic
then they say i very lame
walau
very lame meh
haha
i dont think so ma
haha
but a lot of my students say i lame le lor
saddening
im a lamer
lol

later had afternoon snack
i took 2 biscuits and thats all
lol
so pro la
hahaha

took p1s and p2s out
i was instructed to bring them out for half an hour only
because got new p1s
3 somemore
all guys
super hyperactive
walau
thats why the incharge scared i cannot cope
haha
but i can la
haha
because i heck care one la
haha
let them play for about 1 hour
but when i asked them to go back
i was super firm on that la
walau
so pro
i am learning
hahaha
so very fast settle liao

later slacked for super long
haha
collected my pay later
they gave me less lor
walau
so unfair , samantha ng stay longer for 10 mins also will get pay
every morning i go there 20 mins earlier de la
but they never pay me
from now on im going to reach there approximately around 9
hmph
so much for being there early to help out
lol
i just realised that the pay i got wasnt a lot lor
haha
so sad
i want more money !
lol

anyway , met my shifu for dinner
wanted to go get a new hair cut
but after much consideration ,
i decided not to lor
haha
but got a conditioner
lol
hopefully can make my hair grow longer
lol
haha
please grow faster , my dear hair !


feeling so fucked up .
forced by my mum to cut my hair short yesterday
because she complained that my hair has split ends
so have to cut it so as not to make it damaged
kanina
then ask the damm hairdresser to cut it short
then he really went to cut it short when i told him i dont want it so short
chee bye
and to think my mum and maid can tell me its nice
fuck

went for training today
silie told me i look noob
asked edy
he said i look noob too
totally made me feel crushed lor
i feel like im back to my old noob days
fuck
i went home crying lor
cried for like dont know how long lor
about an hour ?
but crying doesnt seem to help at all

worse , when i met samantha today
she totally crushed me
her comments dont seem to help at all
not a single bit
it aided to make me feel worse though
totally had no mood la
suddenly my inferiority complex set in again
totally feel so zibei man
i am so hating that feeling
i dont want to be a noob
urgh
this is so horrible
fuck
now im crying again
tried to console myself
but i guess it didnt really help though
bought new shoes
but it didnt really excite me anymore
nothing really do

worse , my hair grows super slow
fuck
i want my hair to grow faster
but how is this possible
its a horrible feeling man
i am so hating it
nothing really helps now