i feel so hopeless today
today kana scolded by another teacher
because my class was super noisy
and she thinks that i didnt make effort to control them
i did lor
they just dont want to listen to me
i tried my best le lor
when she scolded me , i felt like and idiot
a student being scolded by a teacher
and that student who was scolded in front of her students
hell
feel so horrible
and shameful
lol
i just stayed in the classrooms all the while
didnt even go out
for snack also
i just hide in the classroom
pretend dont want eat , interact with the kids
fact is that i dont want to face that teacher liao
i feel so paiseh

suddenly realised that i did an awful job controlling the kids
they behave in all lessons other than mine
everyone goes wild in my class
and when i walk around and see the students behaving so well in that class ,
i cant help but feel envious
they might not like the teacher
but they listen
why is this so

because im new ?
got another teacher also came in same time as me
students dislike him
but behave
conclusion : not because im new

im young ?
possible . but students thought i was 21 ?
lol . so old ! no one thought i was in secondary school lor . haha

but i think its this two reasons combined
im too soft on them

walau
if this is going to carry on ,
i am so going to get sick of this job
thought of quitting crossed my mind
but i dont like to do stuff halfway
once start , must complete
cannot say die
if stop halfway very embarrassing one
haha
must jiayou
hope situations improve
haha

conducted my first science pratical today
which is like so cool
always im the students and i watch the teacher show
now its my turn to show them
so cool
i enjoyed doing it
haha
did it quite a few times
haha
on the pretext that im good and listen to their whinings
haha

but , I NEVER WANT TO BE A TEACHER IN THE FUTURE !
no way . haha

another boring day tmr ...