hate it .
why must we live up to someone's expectations .
im so sick of it .
tired and exhausted of living too .
ever wondered what heaven is like .
haha .
dont need to do anything .
peaceful and serene life .
no more work to do .
hais .
unlike now .
all i do is study and train .
hate training
my form sucked .
totally no confidence now at all .
coached changed all of my form
and i cant adapt to it
tried so many differenet forms today .
till i cant count .
im exhausted .
how long more do i have to suffer all these !!
tired .
freaking sick of it now !!
low morale now .
competition is just next week .
and cant adapt to the form i have .
how to shoot like this .
let alone get good score .
and thrash that angela .
really feel like giving up everything now .
and maybe my life too..